My daughter's sick at the moment - she has a viral rash all over her body. Doctor has confirmed that it's NOT chicken pox - but contagious anyway. So my son will be staying with my parents and I've gotten time off work. While I am feeling that this is a respite that I need, I do feel frustrated. I had planned to finish some stuff at work so that I can take time off in July without having to worry about unfinished stuff...
And a part of me also knows that I'm expending energy needlessly by feeling this frustration.
When the children were babies, I slowly learned that it was a LOT easier when I just went with the flow. It was emotionally and physically easier to *not* expect my children to sleep through the night but just take each night as it is and not have expectations of other nights. It was easier to feed my babies when they're hungry as opposed to having set meal times in my head.
Then my babies started to grow up and slowly those expectations started to creep back in. Then I returned to the workforce and I re-discovered the amount of control I can have over my day. The trouble with control is that the more you have it, the more expectations you have because of it.
Hence my current feeling of frustration. So I think I just need to re-learn that letting go for the next few days. The doctor has said that my daughter will be fine in 5 to 7 days. Something I need to reinforce within my self is to have faith that I can cope. That my daughter *will* be okay next week. And the week after that when I return to work, then I also *will* be able to cope with the inevitable back log.
I come from a mindset that I can have it all - that I can do it all. And that's another thing I will have to let go of (again). I need to remember that there will always be people who will help me.
When life is raining little curve balls, its time to let go and smile.
Smiling in the Rain by Just a Big GeekHope you all had a lovely weekend!
2 comments:
Sometimes it's hard to see the reason behind things happening, when it's actually happening. Things can be overwhelming... then sometime later you look back and think, "Hey, I worried for nothing. It all turned out how it was supposed to after all."
You just need to get that feeling, or that insight, into the current situation. "Everything happens for a reason" or "It will all turn out how it is supposed to" are mantra's I use in challenging times.
Oh, and while I am "Dr Phil-ing it", it is human nature to worry, so don't beat yourself up about that either!!
Good luck... what can you do with your daughter while she is unwell, that will make the time pass without you worrying about work, and also be able to make it into some bonding time for you two?
Hope she recovers smoothly...
The "You can have it all, you can do it all" myth really annoys me. I find it in my clients and my friends all the time. It's crazy, we can't have and do everything, the best we can do is decide what's most important to us - and that can change with the situation.
Hope Jade gets well soon, poor little duck!
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